And they said it couldn’t be done, addendum

I just looked over my latest blood lab work report. My phosphorus is also back in range. After I saw last time that it was too high I took measures to lower my phosphorus level. I used natural medicine. I did not see a doctor for something I could figure out myself!

I read a lot about this. I read real medical studies and also read writings of naturopaths I follow. I designed my own solution based on all I had read.

It’s true that your doctor doesn’t want you to know that there are real, natural, non-invasive solutions to many common medical problems. Not only that, these are simple things you can do at home, with easy-to-obtain materials. Many are in your local grocery store! All are legal to obtain and use.

If only others knew this. This is why I have written my book, Life After Lithium. I can only hope that what I have written helps other people! In my book I also include a lot of general information about escaping your diagnosis, recovering from the brainwashing of psychiatry, and getting your life back.

And they say it can’t be done!

I have only a few minutes to write this…..

I had a blood test last December which showed my creatinine level at 2.99. This is very high indeed. Had I gone to a doctor I would have been subject to heavy-duty coercion to “prepare for dialysis.” They would have insisted on operating on me, a dangerous operation to say the least, to put a “fistula” into my body. I did not want this, and I do not want dialysis. I am not going to agree to it!

However, I didn’t get these blood tests because a doctor ordered them. I got these tests totally on my own, confidentially. No doctor read them. I did!

I had another blood test Tuesday, Feb 5, which showed a 21-point decrease in creatinine level. They say this can’t be done, but….well, that’s Western Med for you. Doom and gloom! They profit by convincing you you’ll die if you do not become a customer! Actually, the opposite is true, never mind the payments that so conveniently slide into your doctor’s pocket…..

So? If I was that unhealthy, wouldn’t I be huffing and puffing? Wouldn’t I be diabetic, overweight, unable to walk never mind run (I ran 5k Monday and I walk 3 miles round trip to work every day). Would I really be able to carry over half my weight in groceries in a knapsack home from the bus stop? Would I really be able to work over 50 hours a week?

Health is in the eye of the beholder. Funny I think they’d love to declare me unhealthy, just to make a buck, but the obvious truth sits there like a huge boulder on someone’s desk.

Not only work 50 hours a week, but I am nearly finished with my book. That, too.

Why? Because I ditched psychiatry, stopped seeing doctors, stopped taking their (or anyone’s) advice seriously, and started making my own decisions.

I would wish the same good fortune for anyone.

Bad news! Michelle Carter found responsible for Conrad Roy’s death

I don’t understand why the courts do not realize that Conrad Roy was abusing Michelle. They don’t understand that the fact that he constantly threatened suicide WAS abuse! She was terrified, never mind drugged, too. He manipulated her, threatened her, and controlled her life.

If you have a friend who says to you, “If you don’t do what I say, I will commit suicide,” then that IS abuse! Any form of this is abuse.

Here are some examples:

“If you move away, I’ll be so lonely I’ll kill myself.”

“If you dare date others, I’ll stick this knife into my wrist.”

“You’re leaving me? Then I have no choice but to do something very drastic.”

“You are making me so unhappy. I’m going to go pout.”

And so on.

These are all narcissistic abuse. They are not exact quotes from Conrad, but I read enough to realize what was happening.

Looking back on my own life, I remember when I was being abused by my best friend (supposed) in high school. She said stuff like this all the time, constantly trying to control my social life and restrict it to only her. You can see other examples of Destructive Teen Relationships on You-Tube. There’s a whole series on these terrible relationships and they say it’s more common than anyone realizes.

The victims talk about what it was like. Most are able to leave unscathed, but some were left with trauma over the incident. This type of abuse does not discriminate and anyone can end up in such a relationship. Most who got roped into abuse were not aware of the red flags. Ignorance or lack of education is not a mental disorder, but a sign that people need to be told this stuff.

After narcissistic abuse there’s a recovery period. If you know anyone subject to this, please be patient with the person because the recovery period can be very rocky.

In a lot of these instances, the parent or school system had to get involved to protect the victim. In the instance of Michelle Carter, I question why her counselors did not help her out. She was seeing them, so wasn’t it their responsibility to act? No, they drugged her! Being an abuse victim isn’t a mental illness. I believe she sent those texts in a state of utter desperation, seeing this as a way out of abuse.

If Kate had committed suicide during high school I would have secretly been relieved. I did not even consider this during that time. I did consider killing myself but dismissed this as an undesirable last resort. I considered running away very seriously. I also considered faking a suicide attempt because back then I figured a hospital would be a good place and they’d get me out of the relationship. I am awfully glad that did not happen, as I was wrong about just how “good” those places are.

Instead, I encouraged her to attend a college far away, more than halfway across the country. At one point she was about to chicken out and wanted to attend the same college with me, even become my roommate. Oh no! I was so terrified! At that point, I told her, “Yeah, but think of that nice white powder skiing!” That got her wanting to go to Utah again. Thank god!

After all these years (she and I are both 61 now) I believe she figured this out, too. I think eventually she realized that I very deliberately got away from her. Does she admit this to herself? Or to anyone? I don’t know.

At least we lived through it. I’m not sure about others, though, whose path she crossed, since she reveled in control and power. Do people change? They can, and do. Did she? I do not know.


Example of libel….

Check out this article by Sera Davidow:

I like the article but I don’t believe it was even legal to publish it because in it, Sera dissed other conference attendees. I think her criticism of the ASIST program is really good, but it is not okay to badmouth the other attendees in the way she did.

There is a fine line here. You can legally talk about your own experience. You can say what happened, what you saw, what you witnessed. It is legal to expose abuse when you see it. It’s not legal to reveal personal information about a person that isn’t already public.

I learned this in writing school. Most of it I gleaned during graduate school. While I have named Maria Mellano, any personal information about her that isn’t already public I left out. For instance, my mention of her inappropriate way of dressing is not libel, because you can see that boob crack in her public photo, which is on her website and in other places.

If I mention other patients I disguise their identity. I have used composite characters to ensure the privacy of patients. Yes, you can do this in memoir! I do not name them, or I give them fake names. I might name them if they died from psych treatment, though, because I hope to expose what happened and pinpoint the cause. I do this in the name of justice.

I might call someone by their first name but if it’s an uncommon name I will not. If I use a real name such as Debbie, I do not give out any other identifiers or I alter them to make “Debbie” look like she could be any “Debbie.”

While I did mention my former bullying supervisor, Marquita, by name, I know this is okay because I didn’t reveal anything personal about her. She is known figure at that workplace and anything I said was known there, or was a general understanding. I know I am helping other people by talking about workplace belittling, since some folks don’t realize that belittling isn’t okay.

I think that Sera went overboard to poke fun at the other attendees. I don’t think it was appropriate and I don’t think MIA should have let this pass through the editorial screening. Of course, Sera is one of their pets so they publish most anything she sends them. An awful lot of us are disgusted. Never mind the grammatical error in the title. It should be “whom” not “who.” Geez.


More bank advice

When dealing with banks, don’t tell them your card is lost if it’s only misplaced, such as in your pants pocket or sitting in your bathroom. Any mention or hint that it may have left your possession will lead to your card being locked or even canceled. Only tell them it’s lost if it is truly unrecoverable. In that case, it’s as good as stolen and needs to be canceled and replaced.

I have spoken to customers who do not have their card in their possession. Their spouse may have it, or they left it at home and didn’t bring it to work. This is not a lost card, but sadly, you really have to be careful what you say because they might mishear you.

A report of a lost card can even affect your credit score! If you lose it too many times then they very likely will stop re-issuing it to you.

Do not use the word “bankrupt” or “bankruptcy” or “lawyer” or “attorney” in a sentence when speaking to banks. Yes, this may sound like an extreme precaution but they might cancel your card if you say those words. If you mention a lawyer, say, if you are calling to make sure a payment to a lawyer went through, be sure NOT to mention or hint that the lawyer is handling your debts.

Also, I am very skeptical of companies that claim to be “debt relief.” This doesn’t mean they pay off your bills. YOU PAY THEM, then, they pay the bills and keep some of your money for themselves. If you’re having trouble with finances, get a notebook and pen and do your own debt relief. You can also use online financial planning resources. Many of these are free services.

Don’t pay a lawyer to do bankruptcy for you. Actually, you can do bankruptcy yourself, if you insist on it. Remember, it’ll look bad to employers, landlords, mortgage brokers and lenders and will limit what you can and can’t do for a very long time.

Every time you supply your social security number to a company you are as good as giving them permission to check your credit, whether you know it or not. I have had companies check my credit without my consent so many times that I am considering locking my credit report. Do you really want complete strangers knowing all your previous addresses, or where you worked? It’s almost like LinkedIn, which is another bad idea. I don’t want anyone and everyone knowing my address or knowing where I work. Having a LinkedIn profile is asking for big trouble.

The other day I had an interesting discussion with a guy on the bus about how our country has turned into a police state. I didn’t agree with everything he said but a lot of it made sense. The snooping and prying really gets to me, especially when it’s covert.

A recent article I read in a reputable journal states that now, medical information can be mined LEGALLY off of social media. HIPAA doesn’t cover social media sharing and selling of information. While they might have good intentions here, such as stopping opiate addiction, I am concerned that this is an invasion of privacy for those of us to whom “opiate addiction” is not applicable.

Credit Card tips and tricks

Here is a list of tips that I find useful:

If you are at a point of paying your high-interest cards down to zero regularly, but you are still being assessed a monthly fee, or being assessed a non-usage fee, then all you have to do is send the credit card company a paper check for more than you actually owe. You can’t pay this on their websites because most credit card web interfaces will not allow you to overpay.

Overpaying by even a dollar, if you time it right, will put your balance at negative one dollars. This means you have overpaid them by a dollar. Now, you are avoiding the monthly fee if you leave it in the negative. The advantage is that even though you aren’t using the card you have the available credit. Available credit will decrease your percentage of credit used.

If you are going to carry a balance, put it on your low-interest cards. Carrying a very small balance is better than no balance, but don’t miss any payments. In a pinch, pay only the minimum until you aren’t strapped for funds. Paying as much as you can into your credit cards rather than have money sitting in a checking account is better for your credit score. If you have money to spare in a checking account and no bills to pay, put that money in an interest-bearing account. That, too, looks better to creditors…even though you really only earn pennies in savings interest. Why? More assets look better.

Using a credit card at swiping or chip machines is safer than using a debit card. If the machine is tampered with they are stealing the credit card company’s money, not your money. If you do see fraudulent charges report them right away.

A lot of credit card companies will waive late fees. Call them up but ASK NICELY.  Don’t make it obvious that you’re buttering up the customer service rep, either, and don’t flirt on the phone.

If you are traveling, don’t rely on only one credit card because that card may end up on a hold if the company thinks it’s not you charging up a bill in Hong Kong. Have a spare but do not carry all your cards, either. Leave some at home. Don’t carry your social security card and rip up those old Medicare cards that had your SSN on it. Have the 16-digit number of at least one credit card memorized. Memorize the expiration date and the three-digit code also.

NEVER use the word bankruptcy when speaking to a credit card company. NEVER. Do not even joke about it. Don’t say that word. Be very careful and don’t tell them the card is lost if you know it’s in your house or know you’ll find it very soon. If it’s really lost, that’s when you tell them. If you left it on the bus or left it in the gym or sitting on your desk at work, consider it stolen. If you walk regularly at night at the same time, walk a different route each time. Thieves like it when you are predictable.



Great article on Lorena Bobbitt

Some of you may be too young to remember the Bobbitt case. I do remember. It was around the time I had shock treatments, I guess prior to the shock. I remember telling myself that I knew she had been raped by her husband and asked myself why marital rape wasn’t even being considered. I remember arguing with my friends over this, defending Lorena, maybe because I was sexual assault victim myself.

I also recall the OJ trial, which also occurred before my shock treatments. I felt that there must have been domestic violence incidents leading up to the murders. Suddenly it seemed like the evidence got tampered with early on or was mishandled. I was shocked when one of my best friends took the opposite side, saying he was “framed.” This got turned into a race issue. I think it should have been more of a football issue because back then no one considered that OJ might have had a head injury.

They don’t really know what is going on in your brain until you get autopsied. More recently, Aaron Hernandez, another football player, killed someone, ended up in jail and there he committed suicide. They opened him up after he died and found a massive head injury.

At least Lorena did not end up a chronic mental patient! She is very lucky she got out when she did and was able to pick up the pieces.

We all fall victim to temporary insanity. How many out there have made decisions you now regret? Did you ever buy a product that turned out to be a ripoff? Have you ever had your wallet or phone stolen because you were absent-minded or maybe left it somewhere that wasn’t so safe? Have you ever made a wrong career move or chosen a college major that did not suit you?

Falling for false advertising is a form of temporary insanity. When you are totally convinced that a product is worth your while because some advertiser pulled the wool over your eyes, that wool is the insanity.

Psychiatry used false advertising when it advocated its “help” on us. How long was that wool over your eyes? How long were you deluded into believing something totally illogical, that defied any common sense? How long did you believe you had a disease without being presented with solid evidence? How long did you believe the pills were working when all they did was make you sick? How long were you deluded into thinking that getting locked up was actually good for you? How long did you truly believe that a large amount of voltage shot into your brain was curative?

Now, we see the other side of the story, don’t we?

Warming Centers in Pittsburgh

Please stay safe today! I am copying a list of warming centers from the Post Gazette (altering wording so I do not break copyright laws) and posting it here FREE for anyone who needs it.

By the way, leaving  your dog (or pet) out in the cold for longer than 30 minutes is illegal in Pennsylvania. Be considerate of Fido, please!

Here are the city warming center locations:

● Greenfield, 745 Greenfield Ave.

● Homewood, 7321 Frankstown Ave.

● Sheraden, 720 Sherwood Ave.

● South Side, 12th & Bingham St.

These are the emergency shelter locations:

● Downtown Low Barrier Shelter, Smithfield United Church of Christ, 620 Smithfield St. It will have extended hours this week only from 6 p.m. – 8 a.m. Monday-Friday, and 6 p.m. – 10 a.m. Saturday and Sunday.

● Catholic Charities Day/Warming Program, 212 Ninth St., regular hours 7:30 a.m. – 3:30 p.m., Monday-Saturday.

● Wellspring Drop In Center, 903 Watson St., regular hours 10 a.m. – 6 p.m.

Catholic Charities Winter Warming Station  (Wednesday through Friday), open from 7am to 7pm, at 212 Ninth Street in Downtown Pittsburgh.

Light of Life Rescue Mission, in the North Side, will open and distributing hats, gloves and hand warmers to those that need them, plus warm food and drink. The mission’s warming gate and chapel will be open from 8 a.m. – 6 p.m.


Smithfield United Church of Christ, 620 Smithfield Street, will be open from 7 p.m. to 7 a.m. to provide temporary, overnight accommodations, professional social services, and medical care. The Winter Shelter, a low-barrier shelter serving both men and women, is open every night, including weekends and holidays, from 7 p.m. to 7 a.m. regardless of the temperature through March 15, 2019.

East End Cooperative Ministry, at 6140 Station Street in East Liberty, is open to anyone from 8am to 6pm. Hot lunches served from 12:15 p.m. to 1:15 p.m., and warm drinks any time. Donations are welcomed, but not required.

Port Authority will be running as usual. That means both buses and the Light Rail. I’m not sure about the Monogahala Incline. Don’t go skiing today or skating. It is not safe supposedly, but I remember going skiing in temps well below zero, like ten below…and I’m not dead.

Please please please stay warm. If you drink booze or get high be extra careful that you do not do anything unwise. Stay inside and don’t drive or act foolhardy.