Drugs transmitted through breast milk

Here is the article:


So an addicted mom who takes amphetamines and methodone is branded a killer. Who prescribed the methodone and told her to go ahead and breast feed? Was she not told? Wouldn’t the prescriber be indicted instead?

What about moms addicted to antidepressants, prescribed drugs like Ritalin and more who have babies? Are they killers, or are their doctors killers?

If she was told to take the methodone then this sounds prescribed. It was the prescriber’s responsibility to tell her, no?

Melatonin: For a change, the FDA is helping us out

I’m providing this link only for the sake of credibility. I have no intention of driving more traffic to this guy’s site:

Did A Melatonin Patent Inspire Current Dose Confusion?



In brief: Melatonin was shown to be effective in multiple studies, very effective, but at the dose of 300mcg, which is much, much lower than the doses you see in drugstores. Overdosing on Melatonin will likely not harm you, but too much will be overkill and at that point, the hormone loses its effectiveness.

MIT tried to patent the stuff but the FDA said no. The blogger (or commenter) states that the FDA had bigger fish to fry. However, maybe the reasoning was that the choice should be up to the people taking the stuff!

Had the FDA granted the patent, what would this mean? This would mean our access to Melatonin would be limited. To get Melatonin you’d have to see a doctor, and that means going back to that office just to get your fix.

Agreeably, Melatonin is a hormone. It’s not a vitamin. There are other hormone products you can buy at a health food store as well. Many hormones can be found in nature, outside of the body, and can be harvested and used as supplements. (I have heard that Melatonin is an animal product and not Kosher, but I haven’t actually looked on a bottle. Have you?)

The blogger himself states that Melatonin at any dose never did anything to him. If you read the original post he states he didn’t have trouble sleeping anyway. Would you take a sleeping pill if you slept fine to begin with?  Would you take psych drugs….under any circumstances?

Health freedom, if it were to exist in our society, would mean you could say no to unnecessary drugs and supplements you see no need for. (A drug for shyness? Really? Why fix what ain’t broken!)

Either way, do you really want a doctor to control what you do and do not put into your body? Or do you want to have that control yourself? Do you want free choice, or do you want your body controlled by doctors, hospitals, and insurance decisions?

What if the FDA made all dietary supplements prescribed only? Think of all the people who voluntarily choose to use supplements? Most can be obtained cheaply if you shop around, depending on how savvy you are and where you are located.

Making supplements available by prescription only would bring in big business to the MD, no? Imagine that. They wouldn’t “recommend” and then, allow the patient to choose. They’d prescribe. You’d have to go to the doctor for refills on your B complex or whatever.

Goodbye, choice. Goodbye freedom to experiment and discover for yourself. Goodbye decision-making rights and autonomy. The doctor owns you now.

What do you think? Do you think certain supplements should be regulated? Or do you think drugs should be unregulated? Let me know.


More on HomeServe/DialAmerica

HomeServe was not originally a company from the USA. Here is a British article on how that company went downhill. Note that the CSR reps were misrepresenting the product:


It is not fun to be forced to lie to customers. Had I told the truth about this company, I would have been fired sooner.

WARNING: Changes to your Social Security Benefits Letter

I am on the phone with Social Security right now as we speak, with a wait of over an hour to speak to a representative……

If you guys go to MySocialSecurity dot gov, you can download your “benefits” letter. Beware, though, these letters have changed.

Before, the benefit letter said “Social Security is paying you…” and the amount. That was it. Nice and simple.

Now, your lovely benefit letter states that you are Dis-Abled. I don’t know what good it will do, but you can try to call them and get a letter than does not cause instant discrimination from landlords, banks, and others who need Proof of Income.

My last landlord accepted the tax statement from SS, but I just talked to an institution that refused to accept that and wants the “benefit” letter. I refuse to send them any mention of a dis-ability.

I am furious. Not at the people who demanded proof. They have their policies. However, I am furious that Social Security outs us like this. Worse than furious. The ole activist in me is not going to let this one go. I’m going to be on hold for quite some time here. I don’t think it’s too much to ask SS to send me a neutral benefit letter.

Have any of you  received the new Medicare card? I understand this one doesn’t reveal Social Security number. They wised up, didn’t they? However, if this new card says “dis-abled” on it, I’m throwing Medicare out the window.

Of course, the folks that demanded the letter very well might have decided to “check” to see if I’m dis-abled. Screw ’em.

The highest courts stated USA can’t hold migrant families over 20 days, but….

Good morning, everyone! You likely know exactly what I am thinking. So it’s obviously against every national and international law to detain children. Trump is now forced to comply and reunite the families. Now they are saying families cannot be held more than 20 days.

Those of you who read my blog regularly might be thinking the same thing I am. If it’s totally immoral, horrible, despicable, all those words people are using to describe the detention of immigrants, then….

And one might as well ask, “How can our country be so cruel to human beings?”

But it’s okay to imprison mental patients. Just fine. I can only conclude one thing. We aren’t seen as human. We aren’t seen as worthy of some activist group like MoveOn or hotshot politicians taking up the cause.

Obviously, some of these politicians speaking out for the immigrants are only doing it to keep up their voter support.

As the number of self-identified psychiatric survivors grows, I am hoping we can become a powerhouse that sways our government back in the right direction. What is it going to take?

I think more survivors need to come out of the closet, and speak up about the harms. Many are closeted for obvious reasons. We have actors coming out and claiming they’re bipolar. But what about more people in high places coming out as being harmed?

Obviously, you have to do this right. You want to come out with it without being re-labeled. To those of you reading this now who are closeted, I totally get the dilemma.

I think most of you see the total incongruity here. Has anyone here been detained over 20 days? Say aye.


Effects of lithium they won’t tell you about

Did you know that lithium carbonate causes terrible pimples? My skin was broken out from the year I started that stuff until a few months after it was stopped. Pimples mean your kidneys are breaking down.

I took lithium from 1984 until 1996. It also makes your hair curly, but please…don’t take it for that! Do you want big hair? Take this pill….

It makes you shake very very badly. Some people gain weight from it. I didn’t. It will make you extremely thirsty all the time. Many people gain water weight.

As for anything positive, it helped me with my ED for unknown reasons. I believed I was “cured” for a few years. Cured? While my kidneys slowly deteriorated.

I don’t remember it flattening my emotions any. I had moodswings like any other human being and I don’t recall lithium changing that, though many say they do feel lifeless and flat. I don’t recall it ever helped me sleep nor influenced that, except it causes diabetes insipidus which can interfere with sleep.

It kills your thyroid and your kidneys and many who are on it now will die young. Likely in their 50’s. But…try to tell someone in their 20’s this, and they will not care. Yet.

Great cure, but we lost the patient. –Hemingway


but the #MeToo movement has nothing to do with “treatment”

Here is the article:


While I agree that the joke was uncalled for, did you read the last line of the article? Something about #metoo bashers discouraging women from getting treatment. Huh?

What does treatment have to do with sexual harassment? Treatment FOR sexual harassment? This is not what the #metoo movement is about. It’s about speaking up. Saying it happened to you, too.

I was harmed, too, raped also, and am a victim of medical malpractice. Do I owe it to the world, or to myself, to get treatment for this?

Or, rather, does the #metoo movement encourage me to speak out?  It does! The movement empowers women and allows for that dialogue. There is a huge difference here. Do you see the disconnected logic?

I don’t owe it to anyone, especially myself, to submit myself to a psychiatric label and brainwashing because I was harmed. This is so illogical. If anyone should be “treated” it should be those that commit such harms, and our “sick society” if you are to buy into that metaphor.

Do I owe it to anyone to be silent about medical malpractice because speaking of it will “discourage others from getting treatment”? Am I deprived of a voice because there’s no #metoo movement for people harmed by psychiatry and its ilk?

How about this?  The perps owe me an apology, which I am not likely to get. This, to me, is the logical conclusion. Realistically speaking, though, no one owes a darned thing to anyone. Let’s leave this owing bit to the banks, and end it there.

Why therapy doesn’t work for many binge eaters

I realize now, way too late, that going to therapy for binge eating back when I was 23 was a mistake. I had no way of knowing where it would all head, not back then. I started ED in 1980. Most of you were not alive then, so allow me to explain. We didn’t know what anorexia was. We had no internet to look these things up nor was anorexia very common. No one spoke of it, ever. Bulimia had barely been invented and BED would not enter the DSM until 2013. Most clinicians did not know what binge eating was, and many didn’t know what anorexia was. I remember many of them couldn’t spell anorexia and they couldn’t spell bulimia, either. How was I to get help at all?

I didn’t know what caused it. I never found any clinicians, ever, who fully explained it to me….

After anorexia, your body is still recovering even if you are eating normally and even if your weight is okay. This goes on an average of nine years. During this time you will find that you binge now and then. This is not a disease, it is part of your body’s normal process.

For those who were never anorexic but find themselves binge eating, almost all were starving prior to the onset of bingeing. Either this was due to a diet or due to unavailability of nutritious food. Some were starving and never knew! This can happen at any weight.

Yes, binge eating is extremely uncomfortable and incapacitating. However, overly focusing on it in the form of therapy will likely make it worse. I don’t think therapy that doesn’t deal directly with the behavior is the answer, either. I think therapists that won’t talk about it are avoidant and possibly aren’t comfortable talking about food issues themselves. Or the ones I remember I had were like that. They would talk about anything but!

Overtalking about it will make you obsess about the behavior. It’s just like thinking too much about not sleeping will cause insomnia. Same deal. This is also why keeping a “food diary” can be quite defeating for many people. Never mind the therapists who insist on peeking at your food diary. I always felt violated when they did that. I usually didn’t want to admit this to the nicer therapists, either.

Seeing a competent nutritionist might be the way to go. Expect to shell out big bucks to find one that know his/her stuff. Some of the alternative ones, so-called, might be better, but many of those don’t know anything about ED whatsoever.

I found it helpful to talk to my acupuncturist, just talking helped me immensely. My first one, anyway, the next one I didn’t like as much. I would say my first acupuncturist was a terrific influence on me. I would like to write her a thank you. Back then I remember going and feeling like she was the only one who would listen. It felt hugely relieving to go. I had no social life back then. Acupuncture was it. She didn’t do therapy. She hated traditional medicine as much as I do now.  She would feel my pulses and look at my tongue and then ask me some very basic questions about how things were going. She was incredibly intuitive. She and her supervisor were the ones who recommended I report to the police, after I told them I’d been raped by my neighbor in 2008. They knew I wasn’t lying.

Sadly, my appointment with the cops happened after the acupuncturist graduated. I had no way to get in touch and I couldn’t use her as a validation witness. The police told me my story “sounded fabricated.” And that was that.

We do what we can do. I stopped bingeing after I stopped therapy.  After I stopped all mental health treatment and stopped calling myself a mental patient. It didn’t happen right away, but being free of “them” was a big deal for me, as I realized that after 33 years of therapy, totally wasting my life, I had finally done something right.

After that, I taught myself many things that have helped me. I found I didn’t need a therapist after all and that therapy was holding me back.

I love my life now. I think about other things, not ED. I have many goals and I manage to achieve some of them. I love working and earning money. Paychecks are starting to come in. The next big step will be to get off the disability rolls for good.

SNHU: Education, but…..

Maybe you have heard the controversy or read the recent Boston Globe feature on SNHU’s program in Rwanda. If you read the article carefully and think on it, you might realize what’s behind this.

In 2014 I was looking into getting another degree, since I thought at the time that this might make me a better job candidate. SNHU sent out their propaganda and I bought the Kool Aid, sadly.

A sweet-talking admissions officer told me how great the school was, and also told me I’d be a “perfect fit.” This was outright deception since I was not a “perfect fit.” The U then told me I did not qualify for a Pell Grant, since I’d used that up years ago, and informed me I’d have to get a loan and also pay out of pocket. I told them I didn’t have the money and I assumed that SNHU was done with.

They contacted me again and said they had gotten me the Pell and with a loan, I could pay for schooling. The admissions officer informed me that any extra money from the loan I could use for school-related expenses. Anyone who was as broke as I was would jump at this opportunity, desperate for money to pay rent and food, just to live on. I fell for it.

I have no clue how they got the Pell Grant. It wasn’t legal. The school milked my Pell Grant and took a lot of money out of the loan. If you’re curious about how much their courses cost, they’re 1,000 a credit and most courses are 3 credits, meaning you pay 3,000 a class. This was in 2014-2015.

I knew that taking anything more than one class at a time was financially impossible and would put me into too much debt. I was clueless over the Pell Grant, too, until I got into the actual class and slowly it dawned on me.

The other students were ten times more clueless than I was, either that or they were publicly acting naive for a reason. The quality of education was truly sad. It was not college! Everything was automated and tests were computer-graded. You never spoke to the instructors. A couple of times I tried (they claimed to have office hours) but I got no answer or the instructor just said he was unavailable. There was no classroom and no interaction between students.

Even worse, every time you call the college they record the call. They freely pass emails around that are confidential, even without the sender’s permission. For instance, if you write to financial aid you might get a response from another department. You may discover Financial Aid passed your PRIVATE email containing private information to this other department. This happened many times. I learned fast that I couldn’t use their email nor call for anything useful.

One time I took a class from another U, that got paid for by SNHU. Quality of education was improved but still poor quality and less learning than traditional education.  I couldn’t believe I was paying $3,000 a class and I would get far better education in community adult ed paying about $100 a class! Overall, these online schools never demanded critical thinking and many students cheated their way through the online, multiple choice questions. I suspect many graduated that program poorly equipped to handle a job, but I don’t know for sure. I can’t imagine they left SNHU with any knowledge of how to write a college essay, or communicate intelligently.

I can’t recall how many classes I took but it wasn’t many before I was so disgusted I wanted to quit. I had already dropped a class. The school literally threatened me and said I would lose my Financial Aid if I did not stay in school and that I couldn’t drop another class nor take a semester off. They continued to call me, demanding that I sign up.

By coincidence, my internet wasn’t working for an extended period nor was my phone.  This was the ONLY way I could get out of the phony educational program I was in. I ghosted my advisor. I left an occasional note saying I had no internet nor phone and if he ever called he got my voicemail.

Yes, I did have to pay back the loan. By that time, I had gathered my thoughts and managed to call the Department of Education. I explained my situation, saying I already had a master’s and the school had coerced me into getting an associate’s degree with them! I explained the poor quality of education and explained that the school had accepted me even though it wasn’t the “perfect fit” they claimed to be.

The Department of Ed heard my complaint. I told them I didn’t see why I should have to pay for this education that was not education. They did not deal with what I had to say, but instead, upon looking into it, decided to waive the loan based on “total and permanent disability.” They just said, “Sign the papers and send them back.” Okay, now what?

I have been stuck with this and now I am working. I did not have to prove a disability. I do have to tell them I earned money, and I will be doing that.  However, they did not demand a doctor’s note nor any paperwork saying I’d been examined recently, or at all. They just gave me this way out since I was on SSDI and they did not want to deal directly with my complaint. They handed it to me, no questions asked, with the assumption that I would never earn money. However, I am working now. I plan to contact them again and explain  they need to deal with my actual complaint.

SNHU obtained the Pell Grant illegally. I had had a Pell Grant in the past, used it up for undergrad, and when I phoned the Department of Ed, somehow that old Pell had been wiped out. I phoned the school that got me the Pell and they claimed they couldn’t access the records. This was likely the case but I might have to call again to see if an exception can be made, or pull some strings.

I believe SNHU has NO ADMISSION POLICY whatsoever. I think they admit anyone to their school, anyone whose aid they can milk, including military spouses. They milk money from foreign students who pay out of pocket and do not get aid.

My plan is to contact the Department of Ed before all this catches up with me. Claiming I was disabled was a way out of investigating the situation, a way of silencing me. I want this issue reopened and dealt with before the loan people start asking me to pay up all over again.

I am not alone. There have been many complaints, more by now since time has passed. More debt on my credit record will lower my credit score considerably and make me ineligible for further credit should I apply.

Anyone out there in the same boat, let me know.


I had to rewrite the title of this entry since I started with Saneocracy but never got around to writing about that.

As for meritocracy…

My workplace has this way it ranks worker and higher ranked workers get more call volume, thus higher pay per hour. I used to think this was an okay way to do things but the problems here are obvious. Apparently their way of doing things is called a meritocracy.

Of course it’s better to do things this way than rank according to skin color or gender. I agree there.  But here is my argument about a meritocracy:

People learn differently and this means people will learn some skills quickly and other skills they will take longer to pick up. What skills make you a better worker? Good question, eh? I don’t think a metrics system can truly measure the quality, depth, and breadth of a person’s work. Human value is immeasurable, is it not?

Secondly, I suspect that this will only weed out the unlucky workers faster. This doesn’t just mean the lazy ones. It means the one or two that had medical emergencies this past week. It means the one with sick kids or one who got stuck in traffic trying to get to her shift. It means several who had power outages. I get the sense that it is very hard to catch up once you slip behind. Very. Just like getting behind on your bills. You sink lower and lower while the privileged rise to the top like cream on the top of milk.

We somewhat live in a meritocracy since those with degrees tend to have better jobs and more power. But who has degrees? Those that can afford degrees. That is reality here.

I am waiting to see what happens. I like my job so far but sometimes my faith in the company waivers.