I’m using type to text to speak.  I couldn’t breathe all night.  I was scared I’d never sleep and that it would last forever.  Apparently you can go on and on like that and stay alive.  Maybe. I didn’t realize this.  The last time I looked at the clock it was 1:00.  I don’t know what time I went to sleep.

I didn’t sleep.  I guess I was just exhausted.  When I woke up I couldn’t breathe. I have no clue what time I called the ambulance.  I think it was around 10:00 AM that I was able to breathe again.

I think the proper word was hyperventilating.  Now that’s the word I should’ve used, not I can’t breathe.

I need to train in this computer.  It’s not hearing me properly.  I’m too lazy to train it.  Actually, writing trains it.  Hey, want to be my Guinea pig?  I figure it’s having trouble understanding my lisp.  I have a lisp because of broken teeth.

But had I used the word hyperventilating, they wouldn’t have come so fast.  They didn’t need too, though.  After all, I couldn’t breathe all night.

They got me into the ambulance.  Then, the asked me than usual questions.  What is the date?

They didn’t get as far as vice president.  Shucks!  I have no clue who the vice president is! Do you?

Do you know the date? I sure didn’t know the date!  Do I ever know the date?  Actually, I don’t.  Not unless I’m working.  And several times while I was working I have screwed up the day of the week.  I think it’s Sunday.  And according to my computer, I’m right.

I didn’t even know the month.

(by the way if you say “New Paragraph” (it just did) it will do two lines.  But with WordPress one line means two.  So you only have to click the enter bar once.  And you have to say period (I had to spell that) real fast.  Otherwise, you end up with something totally different.)

That’s right, I did not know the month.  I knew it was summer, though.  Does that count?  (imagine a wistful look on my face)

Guess what?  It didn’t.  When they called in, they said, ” possible psychosis.”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.  Wouldn’t you know it.  Now they claim I’m crazy.  During the rest of the ambulance ride, I kept telling them, “You got me wrong!” I told them up several times.  I just didn’t know what to do.

Apparently, they believed the ER guys in the emergency room. By the way, if you haven’t been breathing all night you might not think straight, eh?

Guess what the nurse asked me? If I felt like hurting anyone or anyone else. The usual. I tried to indicate total surprise and said, “Why would you ask me that?” I tried to act offended. I was.

Of course, they did not take me seriously when I told them I was anemic. Interestingly, the anemia isn’t what is causing this. It’s the kidney disease.

CKD (the abbreviation for kidney disease) is causing it. Well, I kinda knew that (I’m sure speech recognition can’t recognize kinda, so…. Oh by the way, I’m typing now as my CO2 level is now likely back to normal. Still struggling a little bit to type and think straight, but it’s better now.) I knew it was the kidney disease. I just didn’t know it caused THAT.

Now I know. And the next time it happens I will not call an ambulance…..

Anyway, they took me seriously. I do not have fluid in my lungs and my anemia tested 11. It was 10 last time. Also, at the ER they said “Your kidney levels are the same as they were last time.” Hmm. From what I know, they test differently each time. Anyway, the nurse said I had to go on dialysis. So they have a kidney doctor calling me. It’s Sunday. He’s not calling today! And I think it’ll be his secretary who calls.

I am not sure what I will say. The usual? “I have to work that day and right now I’m out so I don’t have my schedule with me. I’ll call you.” This, by the way, I suggest to people for a way to put off appointments if you don’t want to go to one, in my book, “Life after Lithium.”

I’m having a reader read my book right now, by the way.

Well….I’m not psychotic, thankfully. I gotta laugh at those ambulance drivers. I mean, really? I know someone who drives an ambulance. I will tell him this bizarre story.


























































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































Recipe for no-salt hummus, revised, as seen in Life After Lithium!

1 cup of dry garbanzos
1 cup of sesame seeds
Juice of one lemon
About four cloves of garlic
filtered water

Cover the garbanzos with filtered water (I think I use 2-1/2 cups) and cook (I use a pressure cooker!) till done.
Meanwhile, broil the sesame seeds. (I heat them in a toaster oven using a cast iron pan) for 15 minutes. Do not burn them!

Now, get out your blender! You will need to cool the ingredients a little so you won’t burn the blender. Put in the sesame seeds first and grind them thoroughly. Then, add the garbanzos, then put the garlic (just cut it up a little), lemon juice, and just enough water to blend everything together. If there’s water left over from cooking the garbanzos, use that.

Refrigerate and enjoy! (I think I’ll go have some now…)

Life After Lithium will be available this year! I’m following through on my promise! I promise!

Although, I think it’s a bad idea to promise anything……


I dreamed that I fell, came crashing to the ground just like I did when I broke my ankle. I wondered why these nightmares had resurfaced. I had had them after my fracture but they had subsided. Why were they coming back now?

It was not hard to solve this. What else had crashed? My credit score. Normally, this isn’t as traumatic as breaking an ankle. But considering I’m applying for a mortgage, yes, it’s significant. I’ve had to delay mailing in my application now.

So I figured it out. Crashing down, crashing down. It all correlates, doesn’t it?

Accomplishments during my first month off disability

I got my article published, as you know. I am also done with my book manuscript. I’ve had an uptick in views of the item I am selling on ebay. I didn’t expect this! It would be nice to sell something on there.

I broke down and have purchased an AC. It is 90 degrees in here. I hope I can install it without accidentally throwing it out the window.

I figured out the reason for the huffing and puffing. Anemia means less oxygen in the blood, and I ran out! So I need more! There’s a way to get more oxygen, a breathing technique. You do it a few times a day. I’ll give it a try. Maybe to keep myself amused at work. I can also address anemia herbally, with something called rehmannia. To help myself get more energy I’m going to make some more astragulus capsules (I had run out!) and go back to drinking ginseng tea. Mostly, I am low on energy in the early morning. Late mornings and afternoons are my best, most productive time right now. It’s incredibly hard to get out of bed. I am not lacking in motivation. It’s just hard for physical reasons.

They told me verbally over the phone that my SSDI was ending, but it seems I have received it after all. Maybe what they said was, “Ending in July.” What does that mean? I suppose I need it right now anyway. I got medical bills and I was without a paycheck for a while also during (ugh!) training. Maybe I’ll call SSA tomorrow. They were supposed to send me an official ending letter. I’m framing it!

Tomorrow morning I will try to run again. It will need to be early, only that means dragging myself out of bed. I’m sure I can get out there at a reasonable time so that I can come home and sign in.

Saturday I get the AC. I hope I can figure out how to install it.

Please share my MIA article

So far, that I know of, people have barely seen this article

Inside an Online Charter School: Labeling Kids “Disabled” for Profit

It’s going to disappear off the front page. Also, I did a search for the school and this article wasn’t even on the last page. I want to help parents thinking of enrolling their kids. No no no!

I’ll talk to the editors. Apparently they got too much going on right now.