Suicide immediately after psych imprisonment: Another sad example

I wonder if anyone, any of the people who knew this man, made the correlation. Looks like the mental health cops, suicide “help” teams that make MH referrals, are invading rural areas now. But it’s not help!

How I “fixed” a recent dilemma

After I got scammed, I felt depressed on and off. Sometimes I felt so hopeless that I didn’t do anything but lay in bed. I missed work a couple of times. Then, finally, I realized that the world was not really so bad. My view of it definitely was, though.

The world is bad and good. I could, of course, brainwash or drug myself into ignoring the bad, but this would go against my principles and basic duty of calling it out and trying to make the world a better place. Still, my negativity was rubbing off badly on others. Not many others. Just a few. Enough, still, for me to tell myself something has to change.

One day, I had been laying in bed more than usual and from what I recall, I suddenly leapt out of bed, came to the computer, and canceled all my upcoming subbing jobs. I realized that mostly, it’s a depressing job seeing as the schools are dreadful, oppressive places. (Later, when I felt better, I picked up a few days just to make it look like I still work that job.)

But that wasn’t enough. I still felt very negative. Especially about my upcoming book. I obsessed over how it wasn’t going to sell, and I’d be embarrassed all over again.

I realized, also, that kidney disease causes depression. It is not easy to find articles or studies on this, as most of the research is on patients on dialysis. From what I can tell, it’s the dialysis itself that causes depression. For obvious reasons!

I could find very little on how kidney disease itself can cause depression. Actually, the reason was that a lot of these studies don’t mention kidney disease or renal disease in the title, so they weren’t coming up in searches. I knew, however, that kidney disease messes up very badly with aldosterone, which is a hormone. If I recall correctly, raised aldosterone also causes insomnia, because either the melatonin receptors aren’t working, or you aren’t producing melatonin, or both.

Aldosterone has something to do with cortisol, which is known as a stress hormone. This, too, could cause insomnia. People with primary hyperaldosteronism (meaning that there’s no obvious cause as to why they have raised aldosterone) might have malfunctioning adrenals, that is, they are overproducing aldosterone.

So I started thinking. What can I do to lower aldosterone, if, indeed, this is causing depression? I started poking around in the world of natural medicine. A lot of what you can do, I was already doing. It’s just that I’d gotten lazy recently.

What changes could I make? What bad habits could I eliminate? What good habits can I adopt?

I targeted my caffeine consumption, which had gotten worse and worse over the past few months. I still have my one small cup of coffee in the morning, but I was also making a habit of taking caffeine pills. I didn’t think much of it, which was likely making it worse since sometimes, I lost track of how many I’d taken.


A little caffeine is likely good for you. It helps the kidneys excrete salt. If you normally have trouble with sodium, then a little caffeine will lower your sodium level and possibly even decrease blood pressure. Or it could raise it.

I honestly don’t know why I was chugging caffeine pills. Maybe it started while I was teaching school and then, it became habitual.

I stopped the caffeine pills cold turkey (I’m not sure when!) and nothing bad happened. I didn’t get headaches at all. After a few days, I realized I never “needed” them.

Hmm….my mood improved. My energy improved, too, not that I am lacking in that! I feel more ambitious, an area where I am generally not lacking, either. It’s just that the energy and ambition had focus again, instead of being scattered.

I still don’t quite understand the aldosterone connection and I am still studying it. By the way, it’s very easy to get aldosterone tested. I doubt this is a normal part of routine blood testing. You likely have to ask for it.



When I was a kid, one of my brothers went through a “boasting” stage. He was school age at the time. I got very tired of it and approached my father on the subject.

“Why does he boast?” I asked.

“Julie, people boast when they don’t think much of themselves,” my dad explained.

Was this true?

My brother got over it. It really was a phase. I forgot about it after a while. I found other things to concern myself with.

What if an adult boasts? How do we react to such a thing? What’s the difference, if any, between boasting and self-promotion, or perhaps, promotion of one’s business or promotion of a product?

Are you guys as turned off as I am by the mass amount of boasting on people’s websites? “My product fixes everything.” And the dizzying number of over-the-top endorsements and testimonials. They really cross the line when they start boasting of moral superiority. A lot of people do this! You don’t notice it at first…and then, you do.

I recently encountered a professional who interested me. I was turned off by the testimonials, which made him look too good to be true. I finally contacted him. Although I found him likable, it seems that because I didn’t become a paying customer immediately, he started boasting. Is this a sign of desperation? After all, I don’t have a clue how many paying customers he has. Maybe he hasn’t had one for weeks and needs the income.

This has happened a lot to me. I have shown interest but then, held back. This kind of behavior shouldn’t bother a vendor who has plenty of customers. But those who are scrambling might resort to boasting, even making claims of moral superiority or “knowing better.” Which as far as I’m concerned, is a very bad sign.

Do you have Seasonal Affective Disorder?

I ask this kind of tongue-in-cheek. Do you have______ (fill in the blanks)! Pick your disorder, whatever’s convenient!

Back in the 1980s, my mom made up her mind I had SAD. I do not, not anymore than anyone else has it. I could tell, even then, back in my drugged and brainwashed state, that she was just trying to put me into a mold. She was only trying to be helpful. I knew this.

I recall thinking that other factors were at play, not just sunlight. I think mental health professionals shouldn’t be too hasty to hand out this diagnosis, and that they, too, should consider the “other factors.”

Summer is traditionally a school vacation time. So if your summer vacations were happy typically, then in adulthood, you might make the association with these happy memories during summer.

You may also have memories of not being able to afford to heat your home, or, in some cases, having no heat at all. That sounds miserable!

Never mind winter is a nuisance! I do not like putting on what amounts to war gear every time I go outside. Especially when winter gets so nasty that I have to wear very heavy winter boots. It is a nuisance changing into them and it’s an additional nuisance cleaning up the sand and salt. If you drive, you can expect even worse nuisance, cleaning the snow off your car of having it fail to start.

Now, can you see why so many people get depressed in winter? Unless these “other factors” are taken into account, what business do these so-called “professionals” have to proclaim you have one more disorder? Maybe it’s okay to hate the slush and the heating bills. Maybe it’s okay to find the whole season to be inconvenient. Maybe those haughty professionals need to realize that this is part of life, like it or not.

The alkaline diet: Debunked? Or not?

I know from first-hand experience what acidosis feels like. Most people are not at risk for it, but if your kidneys are compromised, or if you have diabetes, it’s something worth thinking about.

I have read in so many publications that the “alkaline diet” is hogwash. But then, these articles will go on to say it won’t help with weight loss. This is true.  But just because it’s called a diet doesn’t mean it’s a weight-loss diet.

It is very true that eating too much meat, for some people, will indeed cause acidosis. This is also caused by too much aspirin or certain other drugs. If you follow a vegan diet, or at least reduce your meat consumption, you will likely solve the acidosis. If it is severe, take a small amount of baking soda and that will fix it fast.

The “alkaline diet” isn’t hogwash if you use it for the right purpose. I suspect that it’s only called hogwash because it’s touted to do more than it really does. I don’t think it’s useful unless you’re at risk for acidosis, which means some of us, not all of us.

Once I saw first-hand what too much meat would do to me, I never wanted to eat it again! It’s really true that diet does change your various blood levels. I wish I hadn’t found out the hard way.

Hmmm…..Is it even possible to contradict your doctor?

On Friday I went to see the nephrologist. This was my second time seeing him, and likely will be the last. This is why:

Last July I ended up in the ER because of acidosis, which came from eating too much meat. I had too much carbon dioxide in my blood, which caused me to have breathing problems. The breathing problems, unfortunately, mimicked a panic attack. I knew I was not having a panic attack, though. My body was desperately trying to lower the CO2 in my blood.

There are a number of ways to solve acidosis. One way is to take baking soda. It comes in tablets you can buy in the drugstore, or you can use the kitchen variety. The other way is to stop eating meat. I stopped eating meat and I invented a salad dressing that I use daily to combat acidosis.

As a result, my carbon dioxide level, as last measured, was in the normal range, but on the low end. I have no worries about acidosis now.

The doctor must have been very tired on Friday, or just not paying attention. He saw my level and demanded that I take baking soda. If I do, my carbon dioxide will drop under the normal range.

I think I won’t see him again.

When will it stop?

I hate hearing this stuff and I hate that it seems to be happening more and more. A lot of people are scared of the police and I can see why.

Apparently someone is collecting a database on these incidents of police violence. No, I don’t mean violence against the police.  You know what I mean.

I am scared, too. I am afraid that someone will be determined to silence me once and for all and that will be it. I’ve been afraid for years.

Writers: Are your books being stolen?

I suspect this is the tip of the iceberg. It is easy to steal a book in digital form, and then, sell it for a profit. This has been done through file sharing for decades and it’s less illegal than it ever was.

Please check if various bargain sites are selling your book. Are you profiting from these sales, or is your publisher reaping the dough?

In my case, it looks like BOTH my publishers from previous books that are off the market are still profiting. AuthorHouse still has my book from 2002 on Books a Million, brand new, which means AuthorHouse is still making it. I took that one off the market around 2014.

Also, Chipmunkapublishing didn’t take my book off of Apple Books and it’s still for sale on there, and here’s the killer: It says Chipmunkapublishing right on the book.

I called Apple and I was on the phone with them for about 25 minutes, mostly on hold. They verified that Chipmunka is responsible as they never took the book off. So….who is profiting? Clearly not me.

This Hunger Is Secret is selling for about $8 on Apple, and Breakdown Lane, Traveled is selling for around $15 on Books a Million.

This is the tip of the iceberg. I bet a lot of books are being illegally sold. If you are a writer and you published a book, please check the bargain sites for yourself.