Well I do feel better

Thank you, thank you, Puzzle! Placebo or not, she heals EVERYTHING! Snuggling seems to have improved things, at least a little. I think I still have a fever, but I lost my thermometer overnight by absent-mindedly putting it down somewhere. God knows where. I was half asleep. I bet it’ll turn up in a week. I might buy another one in the meanwhile. I’m not sure where within walking distance I can purchase one. I will need to walk about a mile and a half to get anywhere. Does the dollar store carry thermometers? If I go by bus will I be spreading germs around?

My voice still sounds a couple of octaves lower than it should. I do sound “sick” but I think over the course of today things will improve. I have an annoying headache and my throat is still sore, but I feel infinitely better overall.

I’m signed up to work tomorrow. I hope I don’t have to cancel another day! It is best not to cancel without 24 hours notice. I need to think on this and make a decision now about tomorrow.

Guess what I did? I used a meat thermometer, my accurate one, and because meat thermometers will immediately drop down when no longer immersed, I kept the thermometer in my mouth and photographed a “selfie” of the thermometer. I had to face away from the light source otherwise the white part of the thermometer reflected back too much. If this thermometer is reading correctly my temp is just a smidge over 100. That sounds about right considering how I feel, and that’s about what it was last night.

My naturopath says the numbers don’t matter as much as how you feel. How you feel, he says, is a good measure of your OVERALL state of health. In my opinion, the very presence of the expertise of the medical profession steals our instinctive “this is how I feel” gauge. I have known people who have no clue how they feel because they are so swayed by Western Med’s tests and Opinion from the Gods. Some are way too wrapped up in therapy to have any clue how they really feel, and others worry about Western Med’s Numbers way too much.

When you go outside, do you have a bounce in your step? Do you feel like you have plenty of energy, or do you just trudge? If you trudge, something’s wrong.

When handed a project, do you feel motivated to take it on, or do you feel completely overwhelmed and helpless?

A lot of people who leave the mental health system end up addicted to being sick without realizing it. This is a sorry state indeed, as it causes all kinds of maladies that satisfy the addiction, but I think coming to terms with it will likely cure the it. Most who are still in the system were pushed into becoming addicted. It’s not your fault. You have to ask who is benefiting from it. You? Your partner? Your kids? Or your doctor? Sometimes it’s someone who is dead that we’re still trying to please.

The Withdrawal Community, I must warn you, provides plenty of food for the addiction, coming up with one “damage” after another to keep you plenty sick for life. Do you want this? Do you want to put off living indefinitely with a bunch of excuses? True of not, they’re still excuses.

I agree, the drugs cause damage, often permanent, but most of us should be able to go on with our lives.

That said, in my daily life I see rather pronounced cases of TD, which I’d say is very bad drug damage. One of these people that I run into frequently DOES have a life, seems to have many friends and is very active. And get this: His friends don’t seem to notice. He’s a friend, he is not a disease. That, in fact, will make all the difference.

Anyway, this bug that keeps coming back is not from the drugs anyway. It’s some kind of virus. Kidney disease does affect your immune system, mostly by messing with your endocrine system. Honestly I am surprised I’m not sick more often. Guess I am LUCKY. Hmm.

Feedback and comments welcome!