Today I went to the gym and told myself I’d do what I could on the treadmill. I found that whatever this thing is, it’s still happening, only it isn’t quite what I thought. I don’t have the problem upon exertion, but after I decide I’m tired and try to slow down. That is when suddenly I feel like I cannot breathe.
I didn’t know whether I should stop suddenly, which actually seemed more comfortable, than gradually cooling off. Then, I realized that cooling off is what I need. I only have to teach my heart and lungs how to do this properly. So I practiced, over and over again. I realized that my system had learned during the course of a treadmill run. Now, I can slow down without losing my breath. I’m not sure what climbing a hill will be like but I will find out soon enough. This area is very hilly indeed!
I say run, but really it wasn’t a run. I can’t run more than .06 miles at a time. Now that is about 1/2 of 1/10th of a mile. One lap around the track is 1/4 of a mile. I can’t do that. I can only do about 1/4 of a lap, then stop or slow down, then, run another .06 of a mile. I did better than yesterday, though. Tomorrow I will run either on the treadmill or on the track. I know in my heart that I have to do this to stay alive, or to get to a point where I’m not worried that I won’t.