I really should be getting some work done, but I decided to dive deep into some research today. I am suspecting that antipsychotics damage the pineal gland and that explains why people develop insomnia from these drugs, especially after the drugs are stopped.
The type of damage that is generally known about is calcification. This happens to us starting in childhood, and then, the calcium deposits increase as we age. This might explain why older people sleep less or even have trouble sleeping. However, I don’t think what I am going through is “just aging.” It has been eight years since I stopped antipsychotic drugs and I still can’t sleep. In fact, if I do not use chemical assistance I do not sleep at all. Still. I have tried stopping, but the results were as I expected: Exhaustion, no sleep, grumpiness, and being horribly short-tempered. I don’t quite know how many weeks “trial” I did before I finally conceded…I need sleep!
I keep trying and trying more things. Nothing works, including dope. Dope has no effect on me whatsoever. What can I do?
One more sleepless night drove me to the search engines. Doesn’t it piss you off that the medicos won’t share their research with the general public? You gotta pay for these medical studies, a ridiculous amount of money, and I will not do that since I might not even find the answers I am looking for.
I was able to get some information today, though. I found out that opiates do damage the pineal gland. I do not think antipsychotics have been researched. This explains why many addicts cannot sleep, and will go days on end without any sleep at all.
My friend described a friend of hers who was an addict. She said when he drives and stops his car momentarily, he falls asleep. She asked him why and he said he cannot ever sleep at night. It does sound just like I was a few years back before I went the chemical route. I think someone told me PCP (or whatever it’s called) will also cause damage that leads to insomnia.
I keep on trying and trying, though. I don’t think the sleep expert was right when he said that permanent damage isn’t possible. i am pretty sure at this point that the damage is indeed permanent. I took so, so many pills when I was a patient, three antipsychotics and three anticonvulsants all at once, and at the highest possible doses, for at least six months….I wonder if I can sue…..
I read that restoration of the pineal gland is possible, but they have not done this in humans yet. They’ve done transplants in rodents and found the results were positive. Of course, I will not have a transplant!
If my pineal gland is calcified too much, I think I’d have other symptoms, too. I suspect the drugs caused real physical damage to the gland itself. The pineal gland produces melatonin. I do notice sleepiness if I take liquid melatonin, but that’s not enough to put me to sleep, sadly.
I did not sleep last night and today I have barely been able to function. I happen to have the day off but I have gotten little done except to obsessively research why I can’t sleep. Again. I’m trying one more chemical in hopes that it works. There are so many vitamins on the market and many are just junk. These are largely a waste of money…but I keep trying.