Another reason why I am not registered to vote……

Apparently now the federal gov’t is demanding from every state the personal info about all registered voters. Our gov, Governor Wolf, wrote an awesome letter to the feds refusing to give them this info. He cited PA law in this letter and also said the feds can purchase info already publicly available (for $20, he said!). He said that this demand for info is only going to lead to more fraud at the polls.

Dear  Trump, I care about personal privacy. You likely can’t do a damn thing about me because your TV ads won’t reach me and you won’t find me on Facebook.

I will not change myself, change my habits, change who I am to please anyone, including the government. On the other hand, if they are threatening to lock up a person like me simply because of what I choose to think, then I will lie like heck (since they cannot read my mind), fake it, act sickly polite (like I do at my job) and then, as soon as they have turned their backs momentarily, run for it.

Upcoming weather and other oddities

I am being very obsessive about the weather for the next week. The forecast constantly changes. We were supposed to have thunderstorms and lots of rain the day of the race. Now it is going to be 62 that morning and not raining at all. When will they change their minds next?

This morning I went out to my usual track where I run and discovered it was locked up. That is, no one was locked inside there, but they had locked people out. My guess is that there was a local “event” last night and they were worried about drunk people getting on the track. They have explicit instructions to stay off of certain parts of it. Are drunk people going to pay heed? Doubtful.  This is the first time I have seen it locked.

I immediately turned around and ran back to my somewhat starting point. I decided to run up the main drag and see how that would go. I went up and back, up and back, three times. I figured the distance was .75 miles. I was wrong! Actually, the distance is .9 miles.

Now the distance from home to the track is .8 no matter which route I take. I do have my favorite route, but…I keep changing my mind on that. I figure:

.8 +.8+ (.9 x6) = 7 miles.

If I run from home to the five-and-dime, that’s a mile. It’s a decent run, too.  If I run to and from the five-and-dime four times, that eight miles, five times, that’s ten.

The farthest I have ever run, ever, was approx 12 miles.  A half-marathon is 13.1 miles. I am positive I can run that far. See, the Little Engine That Could had the right idea, but I choose to tweak it a bit:

Not “I think I can!”

Instead, try this! “I know I can!”

Not that such tweaking is going to cause a major earthquake. However…….The mind can influence the body’s performance. Know what I can do? I can slow or quicken the pace of my heart while I am running. I tried this one on the treadmill, since the gym treadmills do not sent me obnoxious messages should I choose to “hold on” while running. Some do!

Try this one out yourself! Run on a treadmill and monitor your heart. You’ll have to be running for a bit to let your heartbeat settle. At first it is likely to quicken way up, but then it’ll settle into something medium, and then, after a couple of miles, slow itself considerably.

To make your heart go faster, tell yourself, while you are running, “Oh my god! I am so slow. I need to run faster!” Even without speeding up your pace, I bet your heart will speed up if you tell yourself that.

Now, try telling yourself, “Wow, this is really the bomb! So much fun!” Watch your heartbeat drop! Even without changing pace, it really will!

Now here’s the question: Does the body perform better when the heart is pumping fast, or does it prefer a more reasonable pace?

Probably, the answer is both. I think it depends on the context. If you are running like mad to get away from a mental hospital, running for your life, I bet the last thing you are going to think about is how fast your heart is beating. But I bet it is racing. This is useful, this adrenaline, to make you run faster. Fear does that to us. We might end up doing seemingly superhuman feats when we are truly pumped up like that.

However, if you are running a long distance, maybe adrenaline won’t be so great. From what I know, being super hyped up is not going to serve your body well over the long haul. I truly hope you do not have to run an entire marathon to get away from the nuthouse. I hope they give up trying to find you and then you can just hop into the nearest library, bar, coffee shop, whatever, and blend in with the crowd. Congratulations. Now, don’t turn around and run back.

The mind influences the body.  It does this 100 times more than the usual “therapist” wants to admit. Typically, they give you breathing instructions and tell you that will cure you. And then they’ll book the next three appointments for you to ensure you keep coming back and stay dependent and needy. Meanwhile they might ask you how your psychiatrist appointments are going. Just to make sure you’re still doped up.

I got an idea! When the therapist shows up, RUN!

Actually, what helps me run is remembering Maria, that therapist I had from late 2010 to early 2012. She forbade me to run on all costs, even threatening me that she will have me locked up if I walk the dog and god forbid, do something healthy! She wanted me to do nothing and pay for cabs all the time. Was she out of her head?

Oh. Yeah I think I answered my own question here.

So sometimes when I am running, I say to myself, “Screw Maria! Screw the nuthouse. I am free now! Screw em all, and especially screw the ones that claimed I couldn’t do it.”

I know I can, I know I can, I know I can. Run to that one. It has that rhythm, you know.

Medicinal soup for winter

It’s that time again, folks! Time to make a lot of hot food to keep us warm! I figured out how to make medicinal soup! Here is how I make it:

You need two insulated mugs. One should be a large soup mug or wide-mouth coffee mug.

In the smaller mug, brew whatever herbs you want. Keep the cup covered so the brew will stay hot. Let that sit.

Now, in the larger mug, which will be your serving mug, add some thinly sliced veggies! These can include mushrooms, green onions, garlic, ginger, and even red peppers. I also add fresh parsley when I have it. Cilantro would be great in this soup, too. I also add additional dry veggies, a no-salt soup base I use.

You want to pour more boiling water over these veggies and let them sit.

Now, open up your large soup mug, and add spirulina, chorella, tienchi, or anything else you want. You can add your healthy oil of choice. Add a tiny bit of sesame oil for flavoring, and if desired, homemade chicken broth (I’d say 1/4 cup).

Now, pour the brewed herbs from the other mug into the large serving mug until filled up to the top. Stir and you are done!

PS: Do not spill this into your lap as I did the other day!

In Korea, here’s how they take the law into their own hands

Maybe parents got disgusted because the police wouldn’t help out. Here you can see a clever startup decided to close the gap and help out families. Note that they do not do anything violent. Likely showing up at someone’s workplace is not legal in the USA, for the most part, but very well may be in Korea. It looks like they are even trained to deal with school administration tactfully but firmly:

Appearance does matter when it’s the first impression people get of you. If you are short like me and not very menacing-looking, you aren’t likely to scare people like these “uncles” do. It is possible that scaring people might constitute harassment. But hey, scaring people is what the cops do very well at times, and that’s legal, so……

We need a #metoo movement for survivors of psych abuse!

Now is the time! We need to get our stories out there! We need a #metoo movement for us! Please stand with me and support each other in bringing our stories out into the open.

Please contribute to the anthology: This project is totally survivor-run, not run by a therapist but a real professional writer who is also a psych survivor. Please spread the word and help get the ball rolling.

Malpractice statistics from Johns Hopkins, reported in Natural News

I do not trust NN on the whole, but the statistics reported here on malpractice deaths looks solid. I also agree with Mike that malpractice is underreported.

Now see what he says about suicide? Many suicides are due to medical mal, that is, people kill themselves in shocking numbers during the aftermath of incarceration in mental wards. This was backed by a JAMA study, one they were embarrassed about, by the way. Prescribed drugs are also often the cause. This means a lot of suicides and even homicides out there are due to medical mal, altering Mike’s “gun death” statistic significantly.

No, I am not pro-gun in any way. I don’t support their use at all. I don’t even see the point of cops having them. I don’t support the cops’ use of attack dogs either. Dogs are great for sniffing out illegal stuff and for finding lost people. I don’t think dogs should be used for destructive means. If the police are for keeping the peace then why do they kill? Why do they threaten and scare innocent people?

I don’t support keeping guns around for supposed self-defense. I believe the illusion of safety they supposedly give some people is nothing but imaginary.

Likewise, the general public has this idea that pharmaceuticals mean health, that anything prescribed by a doctor is lifesaving (just because the doc said so) and that doctors are gods on high. This is truly mass psychosis.

One week and three days till race day!

I am running a 10K soon. I just signed up for it.  I have been “practicing” almost daily. Right now trying to see how much mileage I can squeeze into an hour. My next goal is 4.75 miles. I did 4.5 in 59:25 yesterday. Today I did 4.5 in 57:25. So I keep improving. Or maybe I just get more daring.

A 10K is 6.2 miles or so. I think 6.23. I would really like to finish this race in 1:15, but I doubt I can do that.

I think Uber is now serving our area. Most likely they are more reliable than the cab companies around here. I will see if they are available this coming Sunday. If they seem to be consistent I will use Uber to get to the race in the morning and to get back home, although we’re talking money…Hey, this is a race. I can splurge.

Heat your home without central heating!

Winter is coming here on the Northern Hemisphere. Are you wondering how you will keep your home warm enough? Are you considering supplementary heating?

I have central heating. I have looked into options if I want to use my central heating less. There are a number of things to consider when you are choosing supplementary heating.

How big is your space? This will determine the BTUs you will need. I think my place, that is the floor I live on (not counting the basement and porch) is maybe 500 feet square. I have never really measured.

Because I am renting, a wood stove is not an option.

I don’t always want to use the main heat, because it seems senseless to fire up the furnace for just me and Puzzle unless it is really cold out. I have options I have tried.

Kerosene is usually easy to come by, but even the best kerosene heaters emit an odor when you turn them on and shut them down. If you get a kerosene heater you need to make sure it’s safe for indoor use. Another disadvantage is that you have to lug the kerosene home.  One gallon is eight pounds, two would be 16, which is how much Puzzle weighs. If you do not have a car this could end up being an issue when it is freezing out. Plastic gallon containers can indeed be refilled and reused. Most gas station kerosene is safe to use. In my place I occasionally have two kerosene heaters lit up. Both are 10k, but it has to be really cold to use both.

I have discovered that there are propane heaters that are really much more efficient, less smelly, and more portable. I purchased a Little Buddy a number of months ago. I believe they sell at Walmart for about $50. The heater comes in a box you can just carry home. Little Buddy runs on one 1-lb tank of propane, the kind you might use for camping. This is a great heater for by your desk, but be careful not to let it burn you. It is safe for indoor use. I see there’s a Big Buddy also, which uses two canisters at once. I believe that one would heat a larger space. I’m considering getting one, and not using kerosene at all, but I’m not really sure. I hear that Big Buddy has the best price at a place called Tractor Supply. We actually have one here, but they don’t ship, I’d have to go there and lug it onto the bus.

These propane canisters are sold for about $6.50 for two canisters at Walmart in the camping section, sold year-round. I am trying to find a place that will take them as recycling. I hear you can fill those canisters with a larger, 20lb one, but I wouldn’t chance it. Buying 20lbs of propane at a time is far more economical. Many Rite Aids offer 20-lb refill exchange, and some gas stations, too. I think you have to store those big canisters outdoors. I would not chance it as something like that would get stolen.

Good basic advice on drug withdrawal

Come to think of it, I was taken off Gabapentin abruptly when I was being abused in Mount Auburn Hospital. This could have added to the agitated presentation I had. They insisted I was “lying” when I said I had been on that drug. Sadly, I had been! They refused to do a taper. I was also abruptly stopped off of Topamax. I was really afraid of having a seizure.

I can’t take Gabapentin anymore. I tried getting some in Uruguay and the drug immediately gave me gout. Tried it again, same result. I was taking it for insomnia, but obviously I can’t anymore. Topamax I continued on my own while I was still in the States before I went abroad, even though the doc refused to prescribe it for me. I had a supply!

I continued it in Uruguay also, to prevent binge eating. I was successful getting off of it, but at first, the binge eating continued to come back when I did not take it. Oddly enough, though, the bingeing finally stopped entirely at some point. I do not have a record of precisely when. (I don’t have a smoking “quit date” either.)

I suppose as my ED became less prominent in my thoughts, and other concerns rose in priority (like finding a suitable place to live) then after a while it didn’t matter anymore.