New York Times article on suicide, and my commentary

Here is the article, which I suggest all readers read in full.


Now, I am a psychiatric survivor. Not that anyone particularly wants to hear the voices of psych survivors these days. In fact, there’s a move to keep our voices silenced. I believe this has been recently illustrated on MIA and elsewhere in an article on the silencing of a TED speaker, Julia Rutledge who spoke on nutrition  in a TED Talk. Later, she was flagged by none other than TED itself!

As a survivor, I am regularly called “dangerous.” I am regularly called delusional and paranoid. Readers here can judge for yourselves I suppose. I have been unfriended to the point of having no friends at all for a couple of years, way back when. However, more and more are joining our cause, so let’s just say I am alone in my quest no more!

Now for the New York Times article….I challenge immediately: Since when is SUICIDE a health crisis? Think on that one. While it does cause death, it is not a disease per se. It is not caused by disease, which the CDC validates. Suicide itself isn’t a disease. So why is it a health issue at all? How can it be an “epidemic” if it isn’t a disease? It may be socially contagious, but it’s not physically contagious via germs. I don’t think they’ve found an actual gene for suicide! While it may be socially passed in families, as it is among friends, they have yet to find a genetic cause for suicide, and I doubt they will. They are not going to find some “chemical imbalance” that causes it, either.

They have never found a chemical imbalance that causes depression, psychosis, nor mania. They used to think that low serotonin caused depression. This is simply not true. People with low, normal, or even high serotonin have depression. They used to think that high dopamine caused mania and caused psychosis. However, what they actually found was that people with high, normal, and low dopamine all had psychosis and mania. There was simply no correlation.

They also found that both dopamine antagonists, meaning drugs that block dopamine (such as Thorazine) and Reserpine, which does the opposite, can affect mania.  They never figured out why. They do know that drugs that block dopamine cause serious problems if taken long-term, no matter why you took the drugs, even if they were given off-label for back pain or for no reason at all. If you try to stop them, you won’t be able to sleep! Then, sadly, you might be convinced you have a chemical imbalance, but the truth is, you’ve become drug-dependent!

In my opinion, people commit suicide without telling anyone because they know damn well that if they did, they’d be incarcerated. To properly and effectively off oneself, one must not tell a soul. This is well-known nowadays. If you tell someone, you can expect a cop visit. If you post how you feel on Facebook, expect Facebook to send the police. If  you talk at school, expect to be kicked out. Expect to lose your job. See? Did Kate Spade want to be locked up? Sounds like Anthony Bourdain was smart enough to know. And you folks? If you’re planning suicide, you know enough to keep it to yourselves. And for your sake, I hope you are NEVER locked up!

I do not want to die in a hospital. I feel so, so strongly about this that I am hoping that if I am ever shot I hope I die before the ambulance gets to me. I hope if I am ever hit by a car I die instantly and not in a hospital. If I have a heart attack I don’t want to die while being touched by a nurse or doctor. I don’t want to die while feeling terrified of abuse.  If I ever do suicide, i don’t want my last minutes of life to be their attempt to revive me. Just let me die alone rather than be touched by medical personnel.

I hope, for you guys, that you are never, ever locked up again. It is abuse. If you choose suicide, it is your choice. I would never wish incarceration for anyone. It is worse than death for many of us, especially for those of us with a history.

Whoever wrote that article had no clue of this fear we feel.  If you were never abused in a hospital you likely wouldn’t mind, but once it happens to you, you cannot go back. No wonder.



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