I am a druggie

I am a druggie

Yes, I’m a druggie. You can use different words for it but I choose to stay away from the overused ones, such as “addict,” “user,” or “abuser.” I choose not to make the distinction between whether the drugs were prescribed or not prescribed or whether they were legal or not legal. I choose not to distinguish whether these drugs were doctor-recommended or whether I took them without a doctor’s permission. I choose not to make the excuse that I took the drugs because they “helped” me or they “saved my life.” Or because I wasn’t properly informed of the dangers by the docs that gave them to me. I choose not to distinguish between whether the drugs had addicting qualities to them, or whether you develop a tolerance to them or not, or whether once you get on them, you experience physical withdrawal if you stop cold turkey.

Regardless. I took drugs. I took many drugs. I took so many that you wouldn’t recognize me. I took antipsychotic drugs (both newer and older), antianxiety drugs, antidepressants, lithium salts, nonclassified psych meds, benzos, sleeping pills, antihistimines, anticonvulsants, antiopiates, a beta blocker, antibiotics, the flu shot, ibuprofen, naproxen…..

So, I suppose all these were legal. Prescribed. Approved. Supposed to help me. “Lifesaving.” However, I’m no different from the addict actor that died last week of a heroin overdose. I’m really not. The only difference is that I’m not on those drugs anymore except the thyroid pill, and also, I’m alive and breathing. He’s dead.

Take “addict” out. Take “user” out. Take “abuser” out. We need new words. Drugs are drugs are drugs. Informed choice is relevant whenever adult humans take drugs. I put the drugs into my mouth and I make this decision based on my own informed choice. It’s not relevant for my dog because my dog cannot weigh these options. I make the decision for her. She takes a thyroid pill that I give her. I decided to give it to her as prescribed and recommended by my vet based on the results of laboratory blood tests done at my vet’s office. A child cannot choose and whoever decides must be informed and decide wisely for the sake of the child until the child is old and wise enough to decide for her/himself. I don’t have a child. My dog will never, ever grow up and I never have to worry about teaching Puzzle to drive a car, paying for Puzzle’s college education, or the day Puzzle goes out to a big drinking and drugging party.

If Puzzle ever sends me a text asking me permission to go on an antipsychotic, what should I do as responsible dog owner?

I think I’ll take away that cell phone of hers. Since when do dogs have thumbs?

4 thoughts on “I am a druggie”

  1. This is an interesting post. I am on a couple of antidepressants and one thing that has bothered me for a while is how in the days of WebMD, people have stopped needing doctors to help them figure out what will work to the extent that they used to. At this point, doctors have become gatekeepers you have to please/tell the right story to in order to get sometimes needed medications. Someone who can’t convince a doctor they need something and gets it illicitly is an “abuser” and someone who can is “okay.” It is kind of a mess.

    1. What I’ve noticed is that to many people I know, a “doctor” equals the following:
      “A person to whom you go to get a prescription for pills.”
      I do know many of the psychiatrists I’ve seen want to be seen that way, which saddens me. The last one I saw was a one-shot deal and those were her exact words, and my former shrink, Dr. P, pretty much turned into a pill-pusher over the years as well. Don’t forget, these docs are paid off by the drug companies to write these scripts!
      However, I do believe most of the medical profession does not wish to be seen as pill-pushers. I believe most want to uphold HEALTH. I’ll be honest, I’m so scared of doctors at this point due to past experience that I won’t go to one unless I’m convinced that if I don’t go, I’ll die. A person can get pills from a drug dealer or psychiatrist. Why bother a real doctor who is genuinely interested in helping people get better?

        1. They want us to feel intimidated by them. They feel insecure, so they want to let us know that by all means, they are lots smarter and far more educated. A remember back in the day a decent doc said upfront that I had far more education than most doctors he knew due to my having gone in and out of school so many times. Also, I am extremely intelligent. Sadly, most docs I’ve met since have been so much on the defensive that they’ve claimed my degree wasn’t worth much and I had “average or below average” intelligence. Because they were not listening.

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