Today, after posting all those accounts of my stay at the ER

How do I feel?  I don’t know.

A lot has happened since then.  I don’t really have the energy to get into it.  My T said she was terminating with me because I was refusing treatment; however, she called me Monday and had me in there yesterday. Then she made another appointment for me Thursday–that is, tomorrow.  But change of plans: today at 4, I am meeting with her and Dr. P together at Dr. P’s office.  I received the e-mail regarding this meeting from my T at about 5:30 this morning.  I responded quickly.  She caught me just in time, as I was about to take Puzzle for her walk.  So now, I will be leaving in about two hours to get there.  I plan to be a little early.  It is better to be early than to be late.

I don’t know what will happen from here.  It will be an intense meeting.  Other than that, I don’t know how it will go.  And I know this much: This is the first time that Dr. P and my T will be meeting in person.

I am tired.  I am feeling very low today.  I have had days of more energy and today is a day that I am having trouble getting everything done that I want to get done.  I have my priorities.

My stay at the ER – Saturday – third and final post

Saturday, July 23, 2011 #3

My case manager from DMH was here briefly and brought my things.  Then I spoke with a psychiatrist.  I guess I was able to impress upon her that I am not “actively suicidal” so she is letting me go home.

My blood pressure this morning: normal
My pulse: 45

They did not weigh me the whole time I was here.  That’s okay.  I very well may have refused to get on the scale.

Back to my life.

My stay at the ER – Saturday – #2

Saturday, July 23, 2011 #2

I have showered.  I notice that the edema is gone.  I know this because my socks make very little imprint on my legs.  They no longer watch me except when I eat.  I have not seen a doctor today.  Apparently I am going to be allowed a cup of coffee.  That would be nice.