I may not have hope, but for now, I can spice up my life. I can wear a different shirt every day. I can rearrange my tiny apartment to suit me. I can write many e-mails to people around the world. I can write to my dog. I can write to God. I can write to myself. One of these people might write back.
Although I eat very little, I can season my food differently each time I eat it. My food is colorful. I arrange it pleasingly on my plate. I garnish it. I eat with a fancy napkin. I have several tables in my apartment, and I can eat at a different table at each meal. I can choose to heat my food, or I can eat it ice cold.
Though it is a very small town, only four square miles, there are many streets here to explore. I have lived here nearly 25 years and I have yet to see all the nooks and crannies of the neighborhoods here. But every day, my dog and I take the same route. Why? Why not spice it up? Well, I am a person who likes regularity, and they say that dogs like to do the exact same thing every day for some reason. So we take the same route.
But I listen to different music each time we walk. The weather is always different. My thoughts are always different. Whether I am feeling hopeful, sad, depressed, or full of anticipation for the day ahead, each walk is vastly different from the other. Yes, our walks are spiced up.
Although I do not have hope, I can do things to spice up my life. I can knit using colorful yarns with varying textures. I can make dog sweaters. I can make hats for myself to match. My dog and I can go in style.
And going in style we do. Because every day, when we walk down the street, I say to myself, “This is my dog. This is my creature, that I care for, that I love and cherish, that each day greets me with a wag and a sniff awaiting a treat. And I brush this dog’s teeth twice a day every day and she’s got the most shining smile in town.
I may not have a shining smile to match hers, but we go in style. I may not smile at all. I may not have a drop of happiness in me. But I know how to spice up my life. So I do so. And this simple task is a comfort to me.