It is nearly 9pm on Thursday night. I am still very sad. I have been very, very sad for two months now. I see no end to the sadness. I am overwhelmed with it.
I don’t know what you’re going to say when I come to your office tomorrow. I don’t want to argue with you. Please, not that. I have no strength in me for an argument.
Please read the information I gave you in the previous e-mail and believe it, because it is true, and let’s work from there. I want to talk to you about the sadness. I want to talk to you about what has been happening over the past few days. I want to talk to you about what has been happening over the past two months. I want to talk about what it’s like to be devastated by grief and sadness.
Know that I have no intention to do anything to harm myself or anyone else. It is in my contract that I will be honest with my treatment team, so I am being honest about this.
I just want to talk about the sadness, and lay it upon the page, as I am now doing.