ANOTHER LETTER TO MY T, FOLLOWING THE PREVIOUS ONE, WHICH I THINK I WILL GIVE TO HER FIRST, ACTUALLY

Dear T,

It is nearly 9pm on Thursday night.  I am still very sad.  I have been very, very sad for two months now.  I see no end to the sadness.  I am overwhelmed with it.

I don’t know what you’re going to say when I come to your office tomorrow.  I don’t want to argue with you.  Please, not that.  I have no strength in me for an argument.

Please read the information I gave you in the previous e-mail and believe it, because it is true, and let’s work from there.  I want to talk to you about the sadness.  I want to talk to you about what has been happening over the past few days.  I want to talk to you about what has been happening over the past two months.  I want to talk about what it’s like to be devastated by grief and sadness.

Know that I have no intention to do anything to harm myself or anyone else.  It is in my contract that I will be honest with my treatment team, so I am being honest about this.

I just want to talk about the sadness, and lay it upon the page, as I am now doing.

Julie

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