Now my therapist says that she and Dr P are going to set a time limit on me. If I don’t gain weight or go into a “program” within a certain amount of time, they will stop seeing me.
I have no intentions of gaining weight or going into any program, ever.
This means my time with them is limited. Maybe a few months more. And then I won’t have a treatment team anymore.
I didn’t realize there was a size requirement for treatment.
This sucks. How is this helpful for me? How does taking away treatment help me? I don’t see the point.
I have been with Dr P since 2001. Eight years. I have been with my therapist since last October or so. I may have my disagreements with them, but I’m fond of both of them.
I told my therapist that I have no intentions of gaining weight or going to a reverse fat farm (I didn’t put it that way) and that it will be very sad to say goodbye to her.
What a waste. What a waste of a relationship. I got along with them just fine and now they want to end it. It is their idea to end it, not mine.
I have support from my friends, which is a good thing, but over the past year I have grown to also trust my therapist. I thought that she would always be there for me. I guess I was wrong. I guess I shouldn’t have trusted her. I guess I shouldn’t have let myself depend on her. I don’t think I can trust another mental health professional after this. This is the worst betrayal.
I guess the very idea that she would drop me, even though she hasn’t dropped me yet, is a disappointment to me. It is like she is testing me. It is like they are trying to make me worse by denying me treatment so that I will go into a hospital.
I have been stable for a long time. I have been happy for a long time. Nothing has gone wrong with me in the psychiatric sense for a long, long time. And by denying me treatment, they are going to upset that balance. Why are they trying to hurt me?
This is a lovely Christmas present.