Aimee Liu’s book and a few other things

Here is the link to Aimee Liu’s book, Gaining, on

I flipped through the pages using the “surprise me” feature and I was very, very impressed.  If you have ever had an eating disorder, you’ll find this book immensely helpful.

A bunch of us at Goddard decided to buy the book because we’d heard that it had made the NYT Bestseller list and we wanted to help it get into the top ten!  But now, I feel I’m buying the book not just to help a cause but because I want to learn more about myself and gain perspective on my own history as former anorexic.

I have wanted to meet Aimee since 1981 when I first read her memoir, Solitaire, about surviving anorexia as an adolescent.  She wrote the book when she was only 26.  Because she teaches at Goddard’s Port Townsend campus, I will have that opportunity.  I was very disappointed when I learned that Aimee had taken a leave of absence this semester (to promote her book) so she was not at the February residency. 

Looking back over the years, I realize that I never received proper care for my eating disorder.  When I first became anorexic, I had never heard of anorexia or eating disorders!  I participated in a couple of groups for people with eating problems here and there, including Overeaters Anonymous, some of which turned out grossly inappropriate for me, the emphasis being on losing weight or rigidity in one’s eating.  I saw very few “specialists.”  My eating disorder was always considered secondary to my mood and thought disorders, and most doctors and therapists ignored my eating problem altogether, even when I complained bitterly about it.

Ironically, I had to gain weight before I received help.  After my boyfriend, Joe, died, I gained 100 pounds from the medication Seroquel (if taken in large doses, yes, it causes extreme weight gain) and from the grief I had to bear.  I felt like my body wasn’t my own.  I joined WeightWatchers Online and in perusing the support boards, decided to start a “mental illness” support thread.  It didn’t get off the ground, but a few days later, a courageous woman named Heidi started a “Lexapro” support thread.  (Lexapro is an antidepressant.)   The thread took off!  I decided, if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em. 

Today, a year later, our “Antidepressants” thread is still going strong.  These wonderful women, many of whom are former anorexics, are my eating disorders support group.  They have done more for my eating disorders “treatment” than any therapist or doctor has ever done.  I have never met any of these women, but they are as real to me as sisters, and I want to thank them for their love and support over this past year.

I have been out of the hospital a full year as of this coming Tuesday.

2 thoughts on “Aimee Liu’s book and a few other things”

  1. I am so over joyed for you Q!!!!I think you as important to all of us on the ww thread as we are to you. You’ve made us laugh, cry, and want to get you and hug you!!! We are sisters all the way!! Love you!!! March 20, PARTY!!!!!!!

  2. Always envied anorexics, since my tendency is to overeat when I feel lonely, frustrated, angry, horny, whatever.And since I had to give up running (thanks to MS), I weigh more †han I used to. Getting older doesn’t help either.

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